Vizaeth Xunhrae Thaezyr

Description

A small, underweight, thin-framed drow boy, with sharply delicate features and an unsettlingly intense aspect. Red eyes, grey-violet skin and long white hair, often worn part up or braided in imitation of whichever style Pharaun Mizzrym is wearing his this week; when not up, it's usually hanging long and covering half his face. He dresses like Pharaun, too; does his makeup like him - walks and talks and acts like him as much as possible.

He has a lot of scars, too, most notable of which are the ones on his chest, which go under his pecs to meet in a centre line down his stomach. Both his arms are scarred from a mixture of self harm and blood magic, with cuts scattered from wrist to mid-bicep; he has a scar on his left knee from where Pharaun shoved him down in like lovers do; and a stab-wound scar on his left thigh from where Pharaun stabbed him in love, cut you deep.

Other alterations wrought upon him during the series include a crooked nose due to imperfect healing after Viconia broke it in fury to dislocate reason, and nails stained permanently black after his encounter with Charon's Claw in edge of the blade.

About

A bitch of a Sorcere apprentice, Vizaeth is intense and unhinged. He feels everything the Most almost all of the time - the boy doesn't even know the concept of emotional regulation. He's obsessed with Pharaun Mizzrym to the point of impersonation, and also would die happy if Pharaun was the one to kill him.

His violent outbursts injure him as often as anyone else, and despite growing up in Menzoberranzan, he's not as good at suppressing his emotions as he ought to be. And speaking of Menzoberranzan; Vizaeth is a fanatical Lolthite, and adores Lolth with a religious and sexual fervour. He's gay, but he loves Her, and would do anything for Her approval or attention.

His concept of love is abusive and painful, and if he's not bleeding then it simply isn't the real thing. He's convinced that he and Pharaun are Meant To Be Together, and he's not about to let a little thing like reality get in the way of that.

As far as wizardry goes, necromancy is his main school - and the only one he's really good at. He possesses the power to cast other spells using necromancy - and his own blood/vitality - and does so frequently, because without it, the magic fights him. He recently learned this was due to being afflicted with Weave Rot as a result of the ritual that granted him his current body. He's been trying to untangle his Weave before the Rot kills him but, in true Vizaeth fashion, it isn't going so well.

Backstory

Born Xunhrae Thaezyr of House Thaezyr - a most minor of Houses in Menzoberranzan - Vizaeth spent his childhood feeling wrong and angry and lustful in all the wrong ways. One incestuous relationship with his brother and a necromantic ritual later, he took a new body and his brother's identity, and took his place at Sorcere to study magic. He spent several years suffering from the side-effects of the body-theft and clawing his way through his studies with grim determination.

The rest is as told in the fic series. It's as-yet unfinished, but it is not, I can tell you now, going to end well...

Relationships

Vizaeth's most important relationship is with Pharaun Mizzrym. He loves him, he's obsessed with him, he wants to be him, he wants to kill him and be killed by him. Gender envy but evil, basically. He spent years admiring Pharaun from afar, and then once they got involved things only escalated and now he's got more scars, Pharaun's had his hands literally inside him, and Vizaeth has put a geas on Pharaun's heart to keep him from hurting (or killing) him. That's love, you see.

Vizaeth's other most important relationship is with Lolth. She's the only woman worth anything. She's everything, and he's both attracted to Her and terrified of Her. He's masturbated to the thought of her destroying him in dozens of different ways, including vivisecting him.

Relationships with his fellow apprentices are rocky at best. Those that stand out do so for the fact that he has strong feelings towards them - usually hatred, or something of that ilk. Viconia Despana, only girl in Sorcere, has his ire and sometimes his grudging respect. He thinks she's a conniving, arrogant bitch, and she's embarrassed him in front of Pharaun far too many time. However, for some reason they keep ending up thrust together in class or in outings.

Of Viconia's friends, Vizaeth can tolerate only two: Veryan Xolarrin, and Rhylfein Dyrr. Veryan, a sacred, Lolth-touched szarkai, once had both his wrists broken during a calamitous sexual encounter with Xunhrae, and is one of the only people at Sorcere who knows what Vizaeth did to get his current body - particularly horrible, given he used to be friends with the original Vizaeth. Vizaeth fears being outed, but Veryan's blessed status makes him untouchable - a fact Vizaeth has and will enforce himself if he has to.

And then there's Rhylfein. The hot-headed asshole Vizaeth resents being attracted to, but can't seem to stay away from nonetheless. In typical Viz fashion, he has Rhylfein up on a pedestal of importance, though he's been more open emotionally with him than with pretty much anyone else in his life.

(Credit note: Viconia, Veryan, and Rhylfein all belong to my friend and Obsession co-author, the_Jashinist, to whom i am eternally grateful for letting me play dolls with our blorbos)

Playlist

You can see the whole playlist, along with a handful of annotations here.